I'm rather concerned for my health right now...yesterday I discovered that my right temple is swollen and lumpy, and I had been getting a stabbing pain in that side for a few weeks, it's gone down today but it concerned me a little (after all, I did take enough drugs when I was younger to knock out a baby rhino) but that's not all....
for the past few months I have been getting this odd rumbling sensation in my knees when I lay down in bed at night and it was a little disconcerting, but like any good old ex druggie, I put it down to just being slightly grizzled by my old habits, however in the past few weeks this rumbling sensation has been constant and occurring while I stand up, last night was particularly bad and it kept me up. This morning I woke up to find a bulgy vein (or, I hope not, artery) running right up from my ankle to my thigh, and it is twitching and lumpy...
I'm waiting for the doctor to call me back but I think I'll make my way down to the walk in centre...I a little afraid...
Time to give up the fags I think....
Why have I shared this with you guys? Well....Firstly I a bit frightened, second, well I don't know...I guess maybe if any young people are reading this and they are indulging in taking a lot of drugs and smoking like chimmneys, maybe you should cut down....you always think when your young that it wont happen to you or that you have plenty of time to sort it out or stop...
Drugs are fun...in small doses, and even then I guess it is a risk, I don't want to become one of those ex druggies that becomes really anti-drugs, so I wont, but I do know that drugs have become a mass-black-market and there is all kinds of shit mixed in with what you are expecting to take, I make myself sound old when I say this I guess...but, I remember when drugs used to be CLEAN.
These days you may as well take pro-plus and sip bleach and Malibu cocktails, I'm not saying to you to not take drugs, I aint' your mother but I am someone who has abused themselves through the excess use of of party drugs, I learned that I didn't need em to be lively and fun and who I am, but it is a little too much a little too late...I do have a tendency to wallow in regrets, they messed up my life, I didn't see it then, but I do now...
My new man is nothing like the be-tattooed, peirced, rave going ass wipes that I was with before...he is someone I should have been with all along...and he finds it hard to comphrehend how any one could do so much damage to themselves, and what occurs to me and what worries me is he'll be burdened with my health problems too as he loves and cares for me and what I did to myself in the past has come as part of the 'me' package, I don't like to talk to him about it as there is no common ground there...I feel like he should be with someone who is healthy and sane and has no drug past because that is his common ground! so drugs are effecting my social/love life even though I no longer take them...am I ranting? maybe a little, but I worry and I worry and I worry...I know I can't change my past and it will be a few more years before that avenue of my life is completly gone from my mind, but still...
The damage I have done to my body and my mental health with drugs cannot be reversed, or any longer...ignored I am imploring the younger generation to think carefully about the amounts and type of drug they choose to take as it effects on your later life are un-quantify-able...
My god...I am turning into and old fart...
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Okay, so today started out lovely, with a visit by Simon and I to Bekki, where we had a lovely home made curry which I practically inhaled it was sooo tasty, we had a listen to Bekki's Scroobis Pip style hip hop, which I really liked and want to have fun with myself when I get the chance (This weekend perhaps?) and then I headed to my dads with Simon whereupon Billy (the fat shit I call dad on occasions) preceded to rail me out and call me names for something that I wasn't responsible for.
After escaping Billy's I caught the bus into town where I saw an ex boyfriend in subways, I pretended I didn't recognize him and stared at the menu (I was feeling scruffy and harrased, small talk was not an option) the guy serving used the same gloves for meat as the cheese (I hate that!!) and I escaped with a rather large and tasty sub, I got lucky when I got to my stop as my bus was already there, so on I hopped sub in hand, ready to get home and eat it in front of surfthechannel.com, the bus journey was uneventful except someone kept saying 'shit' under their breathe and I couldn't work out who (would I have wanted to?) so, I got home, opened my door...and there on the matt and all over the hallway was liquid AND I MEAN LIQUID dog shit....It stank and was setting and still slightly warm....suffice to say, I no longer feel like eating my sub and I have incense burning in every room (It REALLY STANK POOR MOOMIN!) I should have gotten something to smoke, but I thought I would be good and wouldn't need it....
How very wrong was I?
You've gotta laugh haven't you?
Haven't you?
Hmmmm....
Ha? Ha?
Gaaaaahh!!!
Oh hell...Ell-oh-fucking-ell!!
I think Bekki'll need to make me that curry again, it kinda came up while I was dealing with the poop of doom...
After escaping Billy's I caught the bus into town where I saw an ex boyfriend in subways, I pretended I didn't recognize him and stared at the menu (I was feeling scruffy and harrased, small talk was not an option) the guy serving used the same gloves for meat as the cheese (I hate that!!) and I escaped with a rather large and tasty sub, I got lucky when I got to my stop as my bus was already there, so on I hopped sub in hand, ready to get home and eat it in front of surfthechannel.com, the bus journey was uneventful except someone kept saying 'shit' under their breathe and I couldn't work out who (would I have wanted to?) so, I got home, opened my door...and there on the matt and all over the hallway was liquid AND I MEAN LIQUID dog shit....It stank and was setting and still slightly warm....suffice to say, I no longer feel like eating my sub and I have incense burning in every room (It REALLY STANK POOR MOOMIN!) I should have gotten something to smoke, but I thought I would be good and wouldn't need it....
How very wrong was I?
You've gotta laugh haven't you?
Haven't you?
Hmmmm....
Ha? Ha?
Gaaaaahh!!!
Oh hell...Ell-oh-fucking-ell!!
I think Bekki'll need to make me that curry again, it kinda came up while I was dealing with the poop of doom...
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Hello, haven't posted anything in a while have I? Well, it has been a tough few months you know...
my mom passed away recently and I am a little raw and numb and angry and guilty I loved her, but I wasn't a very good daughter to her, and if wishes were pigs...bacon would always be on sale.
I have a man in my life...he scares me, he loves me and I don't see what he sees in me? I often think that it is my potential that he is in love with...he is so far away from all my old boyfriends, no tattoos, no strange piercings, has lived a life he doesn't lie about, is determined and ambitious and drug free he is sensible and logical and funny and strong. The poor bugger...he fell in love with me!
The trouble with the neighbors has come to a head, she is to appear in court on sept 4th, I am giving evidence, I had a row with her on the day of my mom's funeral and I screamed like a harpy at her, think I called her every name under the sun *the air turned a little blue* I have had threats and shit stirring crack head's making trouble for me. I am glad I do not own a gun of any sort...I could kill her quite easily, I can't wait for her to be gone, that worthless little whore is dominating my life (I'm letting it I know, but it has become a fixation that isn't going to correct itself until the little fucker is gone.. ) she is trying to be intimidating and I think it is funny, because she is just making it harder for herself!
Anyway, tonight my man is coming over and we are having a major chill out session (amongst other activities that is :)) and I shall be trying to forget everything else!
Hope you all have a good weekend!
Kell
my mom passed away recently and I am a little raw and numb and angry and guilty I loved her, but I wasn't a very good daughter to her, and if wishes were pigs...bacon would always be on sale.
I have a man in my life...he scares me, he loves me and I don't see what he sees in me? I often think that it is my potential that he is in love with...he is so far away from all my old boyfriends, no tattoos, no strange piercings, has lived a life he doesn't lie about, is determined and ambitious and drug free he is sensible and logical and funny and strong. The poor bugger...he fell in love with me!
The trouble with the neighbors has come to a head, she is to appear in court on sept 4th, I am giving evidence, I had a row with her on the day of my mom's funeral and I screamed like a harpy at her, think I called her every name under the sun *the air turned a little blue* I have had threats and shit stirring crack head's making trouble for me. I am glad I do not own a gun of any sort...I could kill her quite easily, I can't wait for her to be gone, that worthless little whore is dominating my life (I'm letting it I know, but it has become a fixation that isn't going to correct itself until the little fucker is gone.. ) she is trying to be intimidating and I think it is funny, because she is just making it harder for herself!
Anyway, tonight my man is coming over and we are having a major chill out session (amongst other activities that is :)) and I shall be trying to forget everything else!
Hope you all have a good weekend!
Kell
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Development Goals and Basic Accounts
Last week we updated our development goals for 2008. Generally we noted a number of cool enhancements and investments to LiveJournal that we are working on, including improved search, usability, and site development.We also wanted to let you know how we hope to accomplish all these things, and how we plan on paying for them. In order to accomplish our stated goals for this year and beyond, we need to increase the revenue gained from both groups of LiveJournal accounts: paid subscription accounts and ad-supported accounts.
As of August 28th, all users will be able to choose to downgrade their account to Basic through their Manage Account page. Additionally, we will start showing advertising to visitors who are not logged in to LiveJournal when they are looking at Basic Account journals and communities.
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